Physics

Why am I doing physics? I'm not particularly bright. Or you know, the geeky types. I don't know anecdotes about Landau. I can't give you an overhead view of what's happening in different research areas. Or a list of unsolved problems which I want to crack. Heck, I can't even search for research papers efficiently. And an AC in this cozy office is putting me to sleep. Words flow out of me much more easily than equations, and I'll probably be stumped if you give me a tough problem. But yet, I persist. Why?
Because I love it. I love the quantum mechanics, I love reading papers and figuring out stuff. And when I'm doing the figuring out, nothing matters: not even how stupid I seem to be. And I love the weird, geeky people who read phd comics and laugh at themselves. I love talking shop and being awed by their knowledge and by their brilliance. Hence, I persist and insist on making a fool out of myself. I'll always be a gawky teenager as far as physics is concerned I fear. But sometimes, first loves are meant to stay.